Life is getting form bad to worst , I can't believe that SMILEY can still be so happy.I am just so depressed and struck with lots of bad luck. Today when I was climbing up the stairs as I did not want to take the lift when I suddenly tripped and fell . I hurt my left knee and both hands . They are still hurting now. The worst thing is that there was no one there to help me up . Is that what they call , nobody is there when you need help and when you don't need help , you are always helping? I hope not cause I also need someone to help me up . I don't want to always be the one who is helping and also suffering in the dark . Which I am now doing so. I am suffering from the lack of true friendship . The people around me are officially what I call useless. Because they don't care about anything related about others . They only care about themselves , except for some. Most of them are starting to get in my nerves as they are getting more proud as they think they have the power to . Especially YT , she always ignores me when I call her but when she needs help , she will call me . Is that what you call a friend? She always vents her anger on me when she is upset and now it's even worse , she is venting her anger on the class. I just don't get it , why is mel helping her? If I were mel , I would have left her there to die alone. So she knows how it feels to be left out and without support. She is not afraid to do something wrong cause she has someone to help her make things right but I don't , I only have myself to blame if something bad or wrong happens. But she has all the people in the world to blame . Mel thinks by helping her she can control her , but I need to tell you that it is not easy to control someone. When that person turns on you , the hurt will be two times what you expect it to be. I wish her the best of luck that what happened to me and Ling Ling will not happen to them.I don't want mel to get hurt and suffer like I did when I lost control of Ling Ling...