What is my life like you may ask? It is like a nightmare which I can never wake up from . A hell that is locking me up ,Making sure I can never go up to heaven .What is it like to be in my shoes? You would never imagine the suffering . I have to fake and act every single day and I can't be myself , you think it is that easy to relax and be who you are . You are wrong. I know that going to a new school means that you can start anew , but it is not that easy for me . I have to get used to the people in my class before I can show them my true self and I never shown my true self to anyone before not even my best friend MM . All the people in this worlkd think that I am the hyper girl who is always there when you need her and can be put aside when not needed . That's how I've been treated for the pass few weeks . YT have been treating me like her punching bag . When she needs me , she will come for help and expect me to help her but when she doesn't need me , seh just hangs out with her own friends and ignore me . Is that what you consider a friend? I know this is very negative but , it is the truth , this is my life , how I have been treated and ignored everyday and at every minute , I try to find people in this world who actually care and love me and can make my dreams come true. I am always searching for that someone who can listen to all my sorrows and cheer me up , but it seems like I have to carry on searcing cause I can't find anyone. Hope that that someone can show his face when I really need him and not hide behind some column and look at me break down.

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