Hey again,
I noe that it's been a while and my life has been well, okay,
but I dun noe y but I m gettin more emo by the min.
Cuz its like no one cares.
He comes back in2 my life, ruin it.
Bring me jinx.
First was my grandma have weird growth on her neck.
Then, my grandpa have growth in his stomach
Then, my dad has breathing probs
My mum has weird stomach prob
Now my other grandpa got in2 A&E cuz someone stupid fucking idiot push him down the damn stairs at the MRT station.
That FUCKER.
Anyways, I'm goin back to being emo
Eatin super simple dinner
No rice jus vege
I noe, Im starving myself
Now i jus wan the exams to come and go
i feel like dyin
its damn irritatin
no one noes how i actually feel
i reallhy wanna talk but who is actually listenin to me?
i know, no one
i except it,
I have never been excepted into this sch not to say the class
I dunno if i can trust anyone like how i used to trust ppl
i cant make myself believe in others anymore
i noe i m not suppose to b like that but, except it,
i may seem happy and calm on the outside,
but i m not
no one knows wahts behind every smile
every laugh
sometimes, i think no one even notices me being in this world
My teacher ignores me, period
i dun care,
as long as i do well
i want to get out of tis class.
it is fucking irritating to b thr whr no one ever notices u
amongst the 4 of us, im the outcast
sha, the malays love her, cuz she's a top student
mel, nth 2 say, everyone jus luvs her for her brain
sup, at least, she has CCA
me, my cca ppl are close but i still cant make myself show the real me to them
i dun wanna seem weak
i noe i m but
i jus cant show it out
i jus need a ear
why cant anyone listen to me
they say
"SAMANTHA - the listener"
but sometimes,
the listener needs others to listen too
you say that you are stressed out,
think about what others are facing
look at me,
you tell me everything.
I nvr get to talk
tats the reason y no one understands
you guys nvr listen
let me make tis straight
i dun hate G1/CGS
i jus hate those ppl
i hate them cuz they ignore me
i hate them cuz they think i dun exist
understand?

Labels: Sad Life